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I am currently running on 2 hours of sleep at the moment, so forgive any mistakes within this post. I have a philosophy paper due Thursday that I began working on last night and have since been stressed out more than I usually am for something like this. I tried to get as much sleep as possible, though found it to be fruitless. By the time 6am rolled around I was wide awake and gave up all hope. So I stepped out onto the balcony and sat for a good hour and just thought about life in general. Quite relaxing indeed. Though, I realized that I have not been the best son/brother/friend/boyfriend/student lately. And this began to scare me. I felt like I was failing to fulfill the one task I have, to be the very best son/brother/friend/boyfriend/student I can be. I just think that it is time for me to fix this and feel more confident and proud that I have done my best. So I am sorry for those whom I have ignored or displeased lately (especially B-rad and my parents). I am hoping that I will follow through with this change, I need to take advantage of this awesome time in my life instead of lackadaisically moving from day to day. But for now, on to Philosophy paper (which I hope to finish by 2pm today, we'll see how that works out!).

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Sorry for the emo post.

Okay okay. I think that I finally need to update this thing.

First off, I am ready for fall break! Me and Laura are going to the Pensacola Fair and we are also going to be working security there [but with no weapons =(]. Which reminds me, last week me and Laura celebrated our six month anniversary. October 9 was six months after the ride home from the Farm in Tennessee when she asked me to be her "pillow."

Also I recently went to possibly the best concert in my life! Me, Derik, Eric and Brian went to Baton Rouge to see Man Man in concert. It was amazing, fantastic, entertaining, and full of facial hair! I am definitely gonna try to see them again. If you have never hear of Man Man, check out this cd:


Okay, in other news, I plan to attend the Decemberists concert in New Orleans on October 27th. It is going to be fantastic. I am also debating whether or not I should go to the Death Cab Concert coming up as well. I probably will if I can get up the money and have a ride (*cough*...eric).

Oh yeah, they totally killed off Phil and Reducto on Birdman! *tear*

Anyways, thats all for now. Stay tuned I just might start posting regularly.

This one is for Rachael:



N.E.R.D. - In Search of...

Tracks

1. "Lapdance"
2. "Things are Getting Better"
3. "Brain"
4. "Provider"
5. "Truth or Dare"
6. "Run to the Sun"
7. "Stay Together"
8. "Baby Doll"
9. "Tape You"
10. "Am I High?"
11. "Rock Star"
12. "Bobby James"

At least this time I didn't look like all asian women, like I did a year ago!

Okay, so this job is not as good as I thought now. I have worked the past two days on the closing shift and still have to work closing tomorrow. Tonight they didn't let us go until 1am. It's retarded. I mean the Cafe was closed by 11:30 and Me and Chris had to stay until 1am and help close the bookstore. And we decided that most of the people that work closing in the bookstore don't mind staying all night, they even look foward to working all night. Grrr! I might quit, though it feels really irresponsible to quit a job. But I also got my grades back for my summer classes, and I made straight B's. So that brought my GPA down to a 3.222. So I'm on probabtion! Yay! So the last thing I need is to work on some retarded job until 1 in the morning.

On another note, I got to see Laura!!!! I picked her up from the Gulfport Airport on Tuesday, and drove her to Pensacola and spent timewith her and her family up till Friday and drove back to the Burg to work that night. I gave her the pillow, I think that she really liked it! She then gave me my gift:



It's a Bulawa (Bulava). More about the Bulawa here.
That is just what I needed to restore all the masculinity that I lost while sewing that pillow!

So Laura arrives in about 9.5 hrs. Can't wait to see her, and whatever it is that she has done to herself that has made her unrecognizeable. The majority of people, myself included, have come to the conclusion that she just cut her hair really short. But we may be wrong. I hope that Beaux, Brian and Bru are wrong and it is not a sex change, that would suck! But yeah, I made her this pillow that I hope she enjoys. I sewed it by hand and it took about 3-4 days, maybe more. It is made with a velvet-like fleece material and I used pom poms for the seeds in the center. It turned out better than I thought it would!

Finished Product:


Okay there is some more bad news today...It seems that I have either lost my 30GB iPod or it has been stolen. So I have no music while driving and I am $250 in the hole. I hope it turns up somewhere. It seems as if everytime I have a chance to have a really awesome day, something bad happens to counterballance it. My friend "Funk" thinks that I'll find my iPod on a day that is really crappy. Oh well, nothin can bring me down today. I get to be with Laura and that's all I need! ;-)

Update:
I found the iPod! So today is just totally awesome now! 2.5 hrs left, Yay!

Okay, lets start with the good news first...and it is some of the best news I've had all summer: LAURA IS COMING HOME TOMORROW!!!!!!!! I will finally be able to wrap my arms around her and tell her how much I love her in person! I can't wait to pick her up...no matter what she's done that has made her "unrecognizeable" (well there are a few exceptions, such as the sex change theories). But after two months, I finally get to see her. I finally finished her gift and will post pictures of it for those to see the completed product tomorrow. I worked really hard on it and it turned out so good. She better like it, o rshe might be walking to P'cola! Heh...

Okay so now the bad news....

I got a call today from my mom right before I was leaving to go see Taledega Nights: The Ballad of Ricky Bobby, she called to tell me that my little brother, Cameron, had a breakdown and had to be taken to a psych ward in Pensacola. He also has had suicidal thoughts, and maybe even attempts at suicide. I can't believe that my little brother (only 17) already wants to end his life! How am I supposed to help him? I wanna be there for him, though I am so far away. I believe that he snapped because he thinks he is now alone. It started when I left for college, and the final straw was when our older brother, Sean, got married and moved out. I know that he has been diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder, but I think that the diagnosis is part of the problem as well. Since the diagnosis, in April, the shit has hit the fan and he explodes at everything. It's as if he feels like he can blame it on the disorder since he's been told that he is powerless against it. He just gives into it. I just wish that there was something that I could do to help him realize that he is not alone and that I am so sorry for never being there when he needed a big brother. Anyways, I am going to be in P'cola to take Laura home, so I think I'll visit him there on Thursday.

-...I'm out...